:))

2007-06-08T03:26:00.000-07:00

8 more days till SUMMER!

2007-05-24T06:34:00.000-07:00

21:29:46 mich327elle@i-cable.com [elle, Online]
but if you really don't want me calling you tantan the plantplant, then i'll stop, but it'll be a pity

21:30:19 sarahtansiyin@hotmail.com [LUCKY BUTT SUPERMAN, Busy]
lol i dont really min

: )

2007-05-24T01:35:00.000-07:00

i love tantan the plantplant

this is tantan the plantplant reporting.
tantan the plantplant feels quite sad.
tantan the plantplant also feels quite insulted.
tantan the plantplant hopes that she is a pretty plantplant
because tantan the plantplant knows that there are alot of plantplants outside in the bigbigbig world.

oh dear.

tantan the plantplant prays that you'd take pity on her and love tantan the plantplant too!

2007-05-03T17:48:00.000-07:00

the dreaded guilin trip is here.
it's in 2 days.

7-9 is almost over.
there's 2 more nights.

michelle is almost dead.
she's dying.
she's dead.

VAL YOU'RE DEAD.

sorry to those people.

omg dai lao shi actually understood the language of reason.
親愛的孩子們﹐我們明天沒有測驗.
then this other chinese teacher beside her was like
他們(out lovely 7-9 cast) 很辛苦啊!
thankyou mr mulcahy oh thank you so so much.
you saved LIVES.

THE AMPLE SLEEVES OF LIBAI!

2007-04-23T02:15:00.001-07:00

how's the skin? : )

2007-04-20T06:38:00.000-07:00

i was gonna drown on about today, but since valerie has spent her time doing it, i shall not do it. lol anyways i shall just write a sentence about it. they basically hacked into all the computers and i spent a lot of my CT period on it and my XIN WEN BAO DAO. then mr B told me and val that he taught the yr 13s to "hack". wow great! then this year wasn't as fun as last year except that MRS OCONNELL got in. with a white shirt. well you can guess what happened. anyways the 8th floor new building was in CHAOS in the morning and ms brubaker was like HOW DO I GET INTO MY OFFICE?!!?!?!?!?!?!! then dr drake came and moved the FURNiTURE away and cleared a path to our LOVELY BELOVED RED HOUSE HOMEROOM. and OMG ZHANG LAO SHI AND DAI LAO SHI ESP ZHANG LAO SHI is EVILLLLLLLL. xiao qiang's. omg fakeee cockroachesss. sarah, jing and joyce were TRICKED and DUH they SCREAMED SO LOUD MANNNNNN! anyways today was great. what a pity there's rehearsal tmr... haixxxxxxxx... i shall stop complaining : )

2007-04-17T07:21:00.000-07:00

actually, valerie's cute quiz caught my eye, so HERE IT IS! sorry val i LOVEEE YOU <3

WOULD YOU EVER:
1) Sing a solo?
yes.

2) Take an hour-long shower?
YES YES YES!

3) Smoke pot just to be cool?
EWWWWWWWW

4) Make a mean Myspace for someone you hate?
NOOOOOO

5) Spend all night on homework?
do i have a choice?!

DO YOU LIKE
1) More than one person?
as in like-like? yup.
as in love-like? wait. define person. does mommy and daddy count? of course.

2) Daisies?
mmhmmmmm

4) To paint your fingernails?
YUPPP : )

5) Music?
I LOVE IT <333333333

6) Black raspberry ice cream?
maybeeeee

7) Skinny dipping?
what's that?!

8) The beach?
YAY

9) Cats?
sure, but i don't like studying them...

NOW
1)Is your hair up?
yup

2)Is your phone right beside you?
nopeee

3)Do you miss someone?
YES! all the DGS ppl

4)Do you wish you were somewhere else?
YES, IN DGS!

5)Do you have plans for tonight?
SCIENCE LAB REPORT

6)Are you wearing makeup?
nopeeee

7)Are you wearing chapstick?
nope and my lips are DRY

8)Are you cold?
NOPPPPPE

9)Are you excited?
about spending AGES doing science? NO.

10)Are you watching TV.?
i watched for 15 minutes just nowww

11)Who's the last person you IMed?
ee leng, I NEED THE RESULTS FROM HERRRR

12)Who's the last person that called you?
um... cissy?

PAST
1)Recently done anything you regret?
yup

2)Ever lied?
maybe

3)Ever trip over your own feet?
not exactly...

4)Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?
nooo

LAST WEEK
1)Had any plans last week?
not really...

2)Have you cursed?
nopeeee at least i don't think so...

3)Have you yelled at someone?
maybe

4)Have you cried?
might have...

5)Have you called more than 3 people?
?

6)Have you IMed more than 3 people?
YES OH YES

RANDOM
1)First thing you did this morning?
took off my CONTACTS

2) Do you consider yourself good looking?
nah...

3) Is your cell phone a piece of crap?
NOPE I LOVE MY PHONE

4) What's something you look forward to in the next 6 weeks?
7-9 production THE AMPLE SLEEVES OF LI BAI

5) What's annoying you right now?
SCIENCE

6) What's the last movie you saw?
EHHHH...

2007-04-16T05:56:00.000-07:00

haha everyone's taking quizzes but i don't feel like answering so many questions. i'm LAZY...
but i took a quiz. haha i'll post it tmr. heheeeee it's only a picture though... : )
anyways what was i going to say here? i kinda forgot.
oh right. i think it was something about changing things for my BLOGGGG that is kinda deserted.
anyways. desSerted. wow sweet. anyways as i type my TALL TALL cup is shaking. so i should stop i guess.
bye byeeeeeee.

2007-04-12T07:07:00.000-07:00

"A friend is someone who cares
Someone who is always there
A friend is someone special
Someone who you can tell everything
A friend is someone who will never betray you
No matter who doesn't like you
A friend is someone you can trust
Someone kind of like you" --Internet

2007-04-04T23:22:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAHTANSIYIN :D
YOU'RE OFFICIALLY OLD NOW.

I LOVE YOU <33

2007-03-26T22:42:00.000-07:00

OKAY I'M OLD so yeah. anyways hello everyone.
i'm 14 yes F-O-U-R-T-E-E-N.

AND VALERIE YEE I DO NOT LIKE HIM MAYBE YOU DO CUZ YOU KEEP TALKING ABOUT HIM. YES YES DENIAL. YOU WERE TOO. SILLY BILLY. ANYWAYS I FORGIVE YOU FOR BEING CHILDISH.

JOYCE I RESPECT YOU BECAUSE YOU'RE MY LEUNG PO PO. I LOVE YOU DEARR <33

oh i love LISA TOO cuz she's very nice and she's my GUO BAO :D i love you lisa

then there are many other people that i love. and sarahtansiyin. i'm gna get you. i'm WORKING SO GO AWAY!

thanks everyone for saying happy birthday and presents. thanks for the earings ee leng and valerie.

signing off,
michelle 1:51 PM
14 years earlier, i still wasn't born.
soon though.

2007-03-20T05:28:00.000-07:00

there are things that can be forgotten, there are things that remain forever, etched in your memory. a lot of things you regret, only when it is too late. i've poured a bucket of water out, i've released papers in the wind. i've done everything wrong. i've never understood, how a specific person can make such a difference in your life. there isn't another chance for me, so all i can do is move on. but i can never forget you, all those times with you, the time you spent with me, the time you said "i'm proud of you". the times when your words meant so much, to the times when your words hurt so bad, so much that you'll never realize. i might wish for another chance, but i know i should move on. i'll miss you dearly, and i'll be hurting inside. but the world won't see, the world won't care. thanks for everything, until the day if you ever decide to forgive me, i'm sorry, and i mean it, really, i do.

2007-03-17T03:19:00.000-07:00

i just got back from crossroads, and *sighhhhhhs* i'm so tired.
we moved TALL SHELVES that were REALLY HEAVY and taller than the door.
so we had to turn the shelf/cuboard thing around 360 degrees TWICE.
we (me and KK) swept leaves [oh they were SO dusty and ANT-y] then we were talking abt TPC and ants and mosquitos
then i put the rubbish bag into a rubbish bin and i screamed. for what reason? none! weird or what!?
anyways i love manual work i don't know why?! i'm weird i know.
CROSSROADS <33 OH and CHEERS to the UNDERWEAAR/clothes sorting group.
OH AND A LOT OF LOVELY PEOPLE BOUGHT CHOCOLATE, yes, lovely delicious CHOCOLATE.
oh oh oh why is chocolate FATTENING!!!!!!!!!!
anyways hehehehe ee leng got PRETTY earings with a special COLOUR oh and she also got a WIGGLY (is that the right adj?) pen!
then i got chocolate, very normal earings and also a wiggly pen (TIGER RAWR!).

i've got to go do my chinese story now, edittt// laterrrrrrrrrr

2007-03-16T19:08:00.000-07:00

Forgiveness does not erase the past, but it sketches a brighter future.

Would you please sketch a brighter future?

2007-03-08T16:26:00.000-08:00

Valerie is typing away away away on her computer and going on on on and on about the cuteness of her cousins? And she then goes on about the perfect debate between her and ee leng. TING XIE later XD i'm trying to revise. good luck everyone!

Posting at CT cuz mr TOPP isn't here, michelle *

2007-02-24T23:15:00.000-08:00

i get to change my earings, WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
so now i have 4 pairs i can wear :D

you knowwwwww CT is SO MA FAN. ho doh parts, mui yut gor part dou ho doh yeah joh, hai.... anyways that was in canto. and HELLO SARAH. we'll all be burried in piles on homework. XD

2007-02-21T04:00:00.000-08:00

heyy sarah, have moreeee fun in singaporee and be happy!
heyy ee leng, have a niceee holiday in HONG KONG!
heyyy deon, HELLO.

it's very clear to me ; you've made it clear that you no longer treat me as a friend ; you've made it clear that i am nothing to you ; you've made it clear that you no longer care.

i hope you'll realize, i hope i'll make it clear, that: i'll no longer care ; i was wrong to think we could be friends ; i'll still be nice and everything to you, i'll still care about you, i'll still treat you as a friend just because you were once my friend and i still care about you.

i hope you know who you are.

2007-02-17T22:57:00.000-08:00

HEYYY PEOPLE WHO ARE CURRENTLY LIVING IN THE YEARR OF THE PIGGY PIG PIGG!

anyways, for a completely random topic. GLOBAL WARMING.
we can all feel the effect of it ALREADY! i mean, how about 10 years later?!
it's currently 25 oC and it's supposed to be WINTER.

anyways JOULE ISLAND is officially OVER. yes, O-V-E-R.
& sarahhhhh, good luck on it, i hope mr etheridge isn't mad at you.
&& you must rmb have fun in singaporee but don't forget hk
&&& you must must must forget abt the weirdoooo island called Joule Island, or JI
&&&& you must rmb you have cool green socks
&&&&& you must rmb that you have a lovely pretty DOGG called HARPIE
&&&&&& you must rmb that school will start in a week, which is SEVEN days
&&&&&&& you must rmb that this is the year of the pigggggg
&&&&&&&& you must rmb that this is very randommmm
&&&&&&&&& you must rmb that you have pretty nerdy fringe-y HAIRRR
&&&&&&&&&& you must rmb that this is the tenth "&" YESSSS IT IS. did you know that?

HAPPY NEW YEARR OF THE PIGGY PIG PIGGG SO ByE FOR NOWWWW.

*she has signed off*

2007-02-13T03:30:00.000-08:00

hello sarah <33

you asked me what was wrong, and i smiled and said "nothing". then i turned around and whispered to myself "everything".

2007-02-13T03:19:00.000-08:00

Wanting sympathy, crying when we’re near. Can’t believe I thought you were my friend, clearly I was so wrong. Can’t believe that I treated you like I did, can't believe i didn't see the real you. Guess what? You’re not greater than me, you’re not better than me, you know who I hate? You. oh wait, you don't even deserve such a nice colour, but i'll be nice and give you yellow. YOU.

2007-02-02T04:31:00.000-08:00

these are pictures of a fringey-haired nerdoooo and her dog, harpie <33

2007-01-27T18:18:00.000-08:00

THE FRIENDS FOR EVER AND EVER! GO RED BULLS, LOL GREEN TRAITOR :D

erm, it was a pretty picture before, but there was a girl, and she said i was violating her personal rights to put a picture with her on it. well anyways, valerie, lovee you cuz you're a nice girl and you look pretty :D

okay, now for my complaining session XD :

OH SCREW MYO SCREW SCREW SCREW, what conductor with ANY sense would change sections of players when they have practised hard for their own section and with a performance coming up? it's just plain INSENSIBLE. anyways, i got DEMOTED to second when i practically know the first violin part by heartt and i have to sit by this little boy whom i totally dislike (to put it directly, hate) OMG IT'S SO UNFAIR! i mean, when they tested me (not all ppl, maybe only me? dno), there were bunches of kids, children running around chatting talking and they were so very loud, how to concentrate? cannot mann! IT'S VERY VERY VERY STUPID. OH SCREW MYO! and that's all i have to say.

me

2007-01-12T05:32:00.000-08:00

you know, looking through my old blogs, msn history and everything, i think i've changed quite a lot. but not for the better. me and ee leng and janis were really good friends at the beginning, and we used to always talk together on msn, and how everyone got kidnapped at times and we had to call 999, and janis would tell us off. then i remembered how janis was an expert at everything. then i remember how me and janis said that we would always tell each other when we did something wrong or when we had hurt each other and not more "mad at each other". how janis and ee leng always got to be in one team and i was always left out, and how i used to cry when they had fun and i couldn't cuz they were together. how i always wanted to be in a team with janis and ee leng. how she always had to go with tilly. how i always loved pairing with ee leng. how i was overjoyed when we were in the same teaching group. how me and ee leng were gonna go to each other's houses. how it never happened. how she was mad at me for 3 months after YMCA camp. then i remember how me and valerie used to be best friends forever when ee leng was mad at her for 7 months (?) and then when ee leng stopped being mad at her, valerie and i stopped being best friends forever. then i remember when sarahtansiyin came and how i had always looked forward to her coming, and how i had told myself to be nice and be her friend. then the day when she came, she was sitting at the crowded table and i was all we should ask her over to sit here, but i never got up the courage to go ask. then i remember the big, nasty change. i became a fat, annoying, hyper, copycat, selfish person. but then i still remember how i always tried so hard. i remember when me and ee leng used to have so much fun. i still remember when she always offered to be nice. how that friendship will never be the same now. never again, right? then i'll remember how joyce came into my life and lit up everything. then how she was so very mean. then i'll always remember how adrian came into my life, and i how i wrote that bad bad post and hurt him real bad. how i used to talk to him so much. how i hate him now. then i'll remember deon. how i met him in chinese. how he was nice. he was new too. then when i met asia too in chinese, and we used to talk talk talk. then i remember how i got moved to A1 an the first class there they were doing a project and i didn't ahve to do it. and how me and lisa always played in chinese and almost never listened. and how when zhang lao shi asked me questions i would just say i didn't know without actually thinking. and how i got top of the class in the first test. and how i got 28/30 in a zuo wen. which is practically impossible for me. then i'll also remember what an awesome teacher zhang lao shi was. how i'm now a pretty bad friend. how i'm always too hyper. how i'm a copy cat (right? there.) oh i nearly forgot. i'll always remember how west side story came into my life and screwed up my grades but changed my life. oh and i'll also remember how ms sterns can be so nice and so mean too. how ms chadwick and her daughter and ms farrell came into the changing room after show while i was changing. then how proud of me she was. then i remember how i ran away from ms sterns and mr moore everytime now. how i'm so scared of them both. how i love trina so much and she is HO COMPLICATED. oh and how scared i was when talia got mad at me that time in wss (now i know why, oh i'm sorry ta!) and how natasha never gave me back my $20 and how she would never let me sit next to both sarah and lisa cuz SARAHTANSIYIN needed lisa more and she HAD to sit next to her. then i'll always remember how i've always wanted to be one of janis's friends. then i'll remember how bernice came and how janis and bernice became friends and then we stopped being together anymore. i wish i had a friend whom i could really talk to (like now), who could really be there for me when i need a friend (like now), who will be my true friend. then i remember how i'm such a bad person now and how i'll never have friends.

to realize

2007-01-12T05:16:00.000-08:00

TO REALIZE

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

Time waits For no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special

The origin of this is unknown,
But it brings good to everyone who passes it on.

2007-01-11T04:07:00.000-08:00

a part of me wish the glass didn't break ee leng!

Church Signs Jan 1-10-06

2007-01-10T06:47:00.000-08:00

Church Signs:
Monday January 1-A Bible that is falling apart belongs to someone who isn't.
Tuesday January 2-God's love is for anybody anywhere, and everybody everywhere.
Wednesday January 3-5 out of 5 dentists agree: church is good for your smile.
Thursday January 4-If you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans.
Friday January 5-People whon't care how much you know until they know how much you care.
Saturday/Sunday January 6/7-Serve locally, Pray Globally.
Monday January 8-The Bible isn't antique or modern--it's eternal.
Tuesday January 9-You talk the talk, but do you walk the walk?
Wednesday January 10-Every time the devil reminds you of your past, remind him of his future.

2007-01-05T06:06:00.000-08:00

january 5 friday-people won't care how much you know until they know how much you care.

2007-01-04T05:20:00.000-08:00

some back to school talk:

ee leng: HELLO, wow i can't believe you're 13!!! <33
sarah: you're different. yes, D-I-F-F-E-R-E-N-T. don't ask me in a good way or bad cuz i dno!
vall: thanks for the bracelet (i like purple better, but red's nice too!)
deon: look i linked you instead!

well looks like it's back to work and no more sleep for us, well, me at least!

2007-01-02T20:15:00.000-08:00

okay here deon, here.
cuz i couldn't edit the old post and there IS something wrong with my blogger.

THANKS:
for not going to math club just cuz i told you to stay
for being weird in English
for being neon
for just being deon (weird)
for muahahaha letting me find out ur blog URL ages ago
for your evil looks
for kinda being nerdy in English
for EVERYTHING

2006-12-30T03:27:00.000-08:00

crazy-math-nerds (deon) this is for you!

Sequence: what's the number after "1"? highlight for answer (adrian)
10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 2007

When will you see this sequence? highlight for answer (adrian)
New Year's Eve Countdown!

Thanks and Merry Christmas

2006-12-24T00:47:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRSITMAS TO ALL my dear darling lovely friends.

hmm...
Christmas is the time for giving,
time for giving LOVE, and showing that you care.
it is about the birth of Jesus,
and not about holidays and presents.
BEAR IN MIND.

Give Love On Christmas Day (Song [is on my blog])

Thanks for Friends at Christmas:

Sarah Barah (you get pinkkkkkkkk) :

Buffy-ing together
Doing music project together and getting mad at me :p
Being just a simply AWESOME friend
Always being there for me and comforting me when i felt bad, encouraging me always
Telling me her secrets and making me keep them
Giving me those really Really REally REAlly REALly REALLy REALLY cute giraffe earings
Forgiving me all the time
Telling me that i'm bad :(
Always being my "mommy" and telling me off for being naughty
Writing that AWESOME post for meeeeee.

All in all i love you loads my darlingg sarah barahhh <33

Ee Leng the Baby Bells who's having her birthday soon:

Not tagging (hmph.)
Being VERY nice at the Christmas Concert
Letting me call her ling ling
Being there for me
Wearing pretty earings (hint... hint)

Let's hope you actually come here and read it.

Talia who was such an AWESOME friend (you get green matching your phone) :

Keeping my secrets
Talking for me (asking too)
Telling me stuff
Forgiving me for my "suttleness" (sry for spelling)
JUST EVERYTHING oh and being there for me (of course)

BOOHOO you won't be reading it, but everyone will knoww tehee i loveeee you so much! <33

Adrian who is SO SO SO mean now:

ONCE UPON A TIME
helping me with English
losing on our TOTing competition
Getting thrown at with chocolate
being SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO mean now.

ARGH. bleh. Merry Christmas anways.

Cissy the French NERDDDDDDDDDD:

helping me in French (wait, did you?!)
being nice on my first day in CIS
being there in homeroom
being there for me always
being a nice nice Scott-er

Clara:

hehe looking at my ear-hole (always!)
being there in homeroom
being there in English
being there for me
a great HUG! (MUAHAHAHA no offence)

:))

oops nearly forgot someone (guess who? valerie yee)

once being my best friend
coming over to my house
taking sticky pix (neoprints you call them)
chatting in Chinese (all the time)
rooming with me
forgiving me for jumping on top of porcupineeeee
being there in wss
being there in choir
making faces and arguing abt "bsh"s
the pretty scarf
leaving (hmphhh. *mad face*)

Thanks everyone for everything, from being mean, to being nice. I hereby wish you a GREAT Christmas.

p.s. Sarah you going to Church tmr?

NO ONE CARES

2006-12-20T20:21:00.000-08:00

i've decided that i won't care anymore.
i've tried so hard to be friends,
i've tried so hard to be caring,
i've tried so hard to just be there,
but i know that i'll never succeed.
i can write whatever i want here,
because no one ever comes to my blog,
because no one ever bothers to read my posts,
because no one ever bothers to come tag even though they said they would.
i've realised that no one would.
"no one cares about you, Michelle, NO ONE CARES."
except HER. thanks *oink*.

cheer up, baby bells

2006-12-19T06:33:00.000-08:00

ling ling you have to read this okay!

cheer up my dear baby bells <33
i love you loads.
as sarah says, he isn't worth it.
i don't know who he is, but i don't like seeing you sad.
bells are cheerful and lovely, they can be deep and dull too,
but seeing that you're a BABY bell, you should be CHEERFUL,
so CHEER UP my dear dear baby bell, i love you loads.

Note: "i love you loads" is not meant in THAT way, so don't think THAT way.

2006-12-16T20:22:00.000-08:00

While i was making cards for Christmas, i realized what a loser i am, that all my friends have let me down, how i wish i could write this on their cards, but sadly, i can't because it is not true:

This Christmas, when I think of the people who make a real difference in my life, I think of the friend I can talk to, really open my heart to, because she understands me… and I think of the friend I have fun with, just doing whatever, whenever, because it feels so good being together… I think of the friend I can count on, the one that I turn to so often, because I know she’ll never let me down… and I think of the friend who inspires me, who always can keep me believing in me because she does… and whenever I think of these wonderful friends and all they’ve given to me, I think of how lucky, how blessed I have been to have found all of them in you.

Thanks Ee Leng, you showed me that you could be nice, you showed be that you could care--if you wanted to.
Thanks Sarah, for being there to talk to, and for sharing presents with me.
Thanks Talia, for being my friend, talking to me, making me happy, and being there for me <33.
Thanks Joyce, for simply EVERYTHING <33.

I wish i had a friend whom i could confide in, whom i can really talk to, who understands me, and likes me for who i am. I WISH. but it won't come true, it won't. so i shall smile like nothing's wrong, talk like everything's perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend that it's not hurting me. i shall. you shall think that nothing's wrong at all, but let me tell you, it's all an ACT, A-C-T. an act and nothing more. thanks for being my friends (only for girls) <33

2006-12-11T03:13:00.000-08:00

i hate ungrateful people.
how they just take everything for granted.
how they never care about your feelings.
how when you give them something (not present, only to help),
all you get is a simple thank you.
when you had spent lots of time,
when you could have been doing something else.
how when i spent about an hour waiting for the computer
to copy the HUGE file onto a disk,
because it couldn't send by msn.
how after i gave it to you and told you i spent AGES on it,
you never even bothered to reply.
how i tried so hard to be there for you,
even though i wasn't in your teaching group
how i thought you were my bff (bf=boyfriend;bff=best friends forever),
how i thought we could get through life in CIS together,
how i thought we trusted each other,
how i thought you would care about me.
but you've found other friends,
obviously better than me,
so go on, live your life at CIS happily,
while i move on with my other friends.
Bye.

I hate you, you ungrateful person.

2006-12-10T23:58:00.000-08:00

If there's someething bothering you,
and you want to talk about it,
im here--
not to judge,
not to give advice,
or pretend i know
exactly what you're feeling.
but just to listen,
and be something
you really need right now...
a friend.
Always remember
you have caring friends there for you...
believing in you.
Sharing the hard stuff divides it in two...
and doubles the good stuff for me and you!
Remember...
whether it's a good day,
or a bad day...
it's always a "love ya loads <33" day!

cheer up. i'll always be there
to cheer you on.
love you loads.

2006-12-06T07:12:00.000-08:00

you might not admit it,
but you've done a lot.
the loops that you did,
made it into a song.

you made up melodies,
you created a song.
you did wonderful loops,
dynamics and all.

i'm sorry if i've been a bit bossy for what,
i guess i'm just TOO used to people in my group
not working in my old school,
and i being the only one who creates the project.

i'm changing,
i'm discovering.
i'm growing,
i'm thinking.

some people say that i don't do ANYTHING;
some people say that i do EVERYTHING.
which one should i choose?
which one should i believe?

+++++++confused if anything++++++

2006-12-02T18:27:00.000-08:00

ok there is seriously something wrong with my blogger account.
a)i can't change the font and stuff of posts.
b)i can't change my skin.
c)IT IS SERIOUSLY SCREWED.

ok back to dance.
everyone. haha. hi.
to think we were so reluctant at first,
to think we thought it would be a bore.
to think we went just cuz it was polite,
to think we ALL went.
now thinking about it, it was all FUN FUN FUN.
even the dinner itself.
we talked, we chatted, we sang birthday songs,
we played chinese whispers or telephone,
even wang lao shi played with us.
okay valerie, you need WAY more practise in this game,
WAY WAY MORE OKAY.
hehe.
boogers are green,
poo is brown.
this poem is stupid,
so pass it around!
ok asia's "poem" and the SICK JOKE.
hehe i won't put it here,
cuz it's GIRLS ONLY.
not like the boys would be interested at all.
okay.

then after dinner we went to haagen-daaz (erm)
and we, well me and valllllllerie (the skinnny chicken)
tried so so so many flavours and sarah barah (another skinny chicken) got so mad eh!
then we ate, and we begged my mum to let me go take sticker pix leh,
and then YUP YAY i got to stay till 10.
then we went and took sticker pix. so fun fun fuN!
okay.

now i've got to do my chinese in 20 minutes,
and then i'm going to watch step up AGAIN.
sry it's not that good, but watching with my friend makes everything fun.
okay.
and TAG MORE OKAY. and update you guys ( or girls ). hehe.

2006-11-28T07:08:00.000-08:00

MUAHAHAHAHA i'm evil. and i'm here to torture you with math.
1.b)expand: 4(2p+3q)+2(p-2q)
=4(2p+3q)+2(p-2q)
=4(2p+3q)+2(p-2q)
expanded.

hehe ee leng. i like it. i like your new handwriting too.
oh and i just read it. hehe reminded me to change my correction tape.
ok. <33 you all dearies and darlings and lovelies.

TOP 10 reasons why you should run away from sarah!

2006-11-27T20:50:00.000-08:00

THIS IS SARAH
MAYDAY
MAYDAY
MAYDAY

RUN FOR YOUR LIVEEEEEEEEEEES
RUNRUNRUN

ARE YOU RUNNING?
RUNRUNRUN

RUN LIKE THE GINGERBREAD MAN!

HEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHE

TOP 10 REASONS WHY SARAH ROCKS
PLEASE NOTE THAT THERE ARE ACTUALLY MORE THAN 10 REASONS.
(:

1) SHE JUST ROCKS.
2) SHE ROCKS SOCKS.
3) SHE HAS NICE SOCKS.
4) SHE HAS NICE GREEN SOCKS.
5) SHE ROCKS.
6) SHE HAS EYES.
7) SHE HAS BIG EYES.
8) SHE HAS BIG BIG EYES.
9) SHE HAS BIG BIG BIG EYES.
10) SARAH ROCKS.

MUHAHAHAHAHA
SEE;
SARAH ROCKS!
:D

PLUS, SARAH IS SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR BUBBLY!

MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAH
okay :)) so remember,

sarah rocks.

2006-11-27T06:05:00.000-08:00

there are good witches and bad witches in this world.
ms. chadwick, thanks for being a GREAT head-of-year!
i'm having you for drama tmr, let's hope you won't be "dissapointed in" our class!!!

SARAH ROCKS.

2006-11-26T21:01:00.000-08:00

2006-11-24T01:27:00.000-08:00

BACK FROM TUNG PING CHAU!!!
ok i got loads of mosquito bites.
i couldn't sleep at night.
it was quite boring, the field work i mean.
but the food was nice.
and overall it was great.
thinking about it, i'm gonna be so jealous when you guys go in may!
//edit// pix later. i JUST got back.

shoutouts:
TALIA--i love you so so so so so so much <33 thank you.
SARAH--HELLO HOW WAS HISTORY?
PIGGYPOkee--I LOVE YOU SO MUCH VALERIE. YUP YOU MISSED ME. YUP I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!
PIGGYPINK--THANKS FOR MAKING THIS TRIP SO GREAT! I LOVEEE YOU. GRRRR I CAN'T GET JOKES.
NEON DEON--HI
please tell me if i missed you out.

oh i gtg--singing lesson. grrrrr i'm so tired and sleepy.

//editt//

2006-11-20T20:39:00.000-08:00

From nightly chats,
To endless mm's and ah's.
From lovely smiles,
To evil pokes and slaps.
From a realationship,
To special, good, friends,
Who will always be there
For everything:
From being there to talk to,
To being there to listen.
I will be there to listen,
but not to judge,
When you need a friend.

2006-11-18T21:00:00.000-08:00

I won't know what you typed for testing, so no worries!!!

2006-11-18T19:36:00.000-08:00

HEHE i saw sarah p today! i was walking up the hill after Church and practically her whole family was going downhill in a CAR!!! WE WAVED LOL :)))))))))

2006-11-18T06:33:00.000-08:00

OMG thank you so much sarah!
you brightened up my day!
but i'll miss you SO SO SO much in chinese.
won't have you talking to ms wong
about taking dai lao shi to the spa,
and everything funny.
won't have you and lisa hitting each other,
won't have you acting FLUFFY.
i'm sad too. :((
OMG thank you ee leng!
you brightened up my day too!
to know that you forgave me.
to know that we would talk.
to know that we'll be in the same tent,
to know that we'll be together.
it just sends a warm glow through my body.
OMG val!
i haven't talked to you in SO SO long!
omg you got 67/70 for ur ting xie!
it's so very good!
OMG adrian!
you hid my nothern lights!

2006-11-18T03:47:00.000-08:00

OMG sarah! thank you so much! AWWWW i'm always thanking you. cuz you're so nice. but WHY? ok this is a ridicolous question. i LOVEEEE you so much sarah. <333
ok we "did music homework" at my house!!! i shall try to complete my job on time, "boss"(in a nice way), or else my boss will sadly kill me :((

SHOUTOUTS:
sarah--FLUFFY EH! and let's not tell val how to do it -grins evilly- and you know, you're so nice nowadays, no specific reason? hmmmms. ahhh just cuz you're being a christian-y christian!!! ok i have a LOT to learn. and GOOD LUCK!
valere--stop saying you don't like him anymore. you blush and everything everytime we mention him. && stop being so N-O-S-Y :))
adrian--stop being a nerd in english. and to think i actually got decieved by ur innocent smile! thank goodness i saw through it in the end, or you would be laughing at me SOOOOOO much!!! :))
ummm... ee leng?-- thanks for being nice in music. and cheer up mmmkay? you'll always have valere and all of us.

-wails like sarah- i want math tution! but i don't know any places. anyone? -smiles sweetly-

2006-11-17T05:53:00.000-08:00

today was one fun and great day,
mostly thanks to sarah,
even though she doesn't know, DO YOU?
ok. first we had computer music,
and ms simmons told us that we had practically done it all wrong.
we were so mad and everything,
but we worked it out. and sarah's coming over tomorrow,
so that we can work on our music and hopefully have something to show on tuesday.
then there was chinese.
jing's news report was so good.
and she picked joyce. let's hope she doesn't pick me next.
she was all "i'll see how i feel and how nice you are to me". AH!
then we had break, and i went to the caff and got samosa and an ice cold lemon tea,
so that i wouldn't fall asleep during the chinese test!
then i went back to the classroom planning to study so hard.
on the way i met marco, he asked for a samosa, i gave him one,
and guess what? he ran after taking it! i'm so gonna get him next time.
then i went back and studied. i was sitting in christie's seat and i was eating milo and candy.
then i was like "joyce HELPPP!!!" and all and then i found out we had to memorize the jian jie miao xie thing. and i was all " i can't memorize anything at this moment" and "shut up"! cuz everyone was so noisy. then guess what? lisa and sarah was having a slapping war.
they were like slapping each other, or rather, lisa slapping sarah, and it was so loud.
then both of them were laughing like dno what.
plus, my candy's like all gone cuz everyone LOVED it. haha it's from seven eleven. ok.
then dai lao shi came and i was still studying like crazy and then i got the paper.
i didn't know so many of the meaninings i was like gosh i didn't study this one, i didnt' study that one.
then the questions were ok but the one on jian jin zhou was kinda hard but i got kua zhang.
haha sarah you didnt' know how to right kua zhang. you should have written pinyin!
then it was over. i guess quite a lot for the multiple choice ones. :(
i'm gonna fail this. argh i need 56 /70! haix, i'll just have to wait.
then it was lunch, and i went with sarah.
we met tilly and i wen to my locker and she went to hers.
i was so fast and so i went up to find SARAH STILL AT HER LOCKER.
then we went down with tilly to the fifth floor.
they were all talking talking.
then sarah decided to share a locker with tilly.
we had to go up and get all her stuff from her locker and go back down all the way.
hehe i tore her folder a bit. sorry sarah. you didn't mind. so nice of you.
then she tidied tilly's locker and make it spotless,
then lovely sarah instructed tilly this and that and then said:
i expect this to be this neat in one weeks time.
&& i can open it too! and i'll mess it up!
after that, we had lunch
and when we were both done,
we put it all on one plate and i went to get more chicken.
i got two pieces and we each had one. it was so good.
then we had english, and i helped sarah's class do the doors.
then we did reading and stuff.
after that, i met up with sarah
and was buggin her with CT.
then i went to bug kristie instead,
and i got a blob of UHU glue.
then i went back to bug sarah ta and valerie.
then we were playing with phones and then ta went home,
and i did too.
thank you sarah for such a great day! i LOVEEEEEEEE you. <33

2006-11-16T07:07:00.000-08:00

i'm sleepy; yet i'm awake
i'm tired; yet i'm not
i feel like killing myself; yet i don't want to die
i have my friends; yet i'm lonely
i have good friends; yet i am not one
everything's crystal clear; yet i'm confused
i'm glad i have you; yet i'm cautious around you
i'm afriad to lose you; yet i'm afraid to lose myself
i was lying on my bed,
trying to relax, yet thinking.
i came up with this; yet i don't like it.

everything's wrong.
and i don't like it.
thanks sarah,
you've shown me a path.
thanks val,
you've made me listen.
thanks talia,
for saying AWWWW
and calling me michie poops!
i am filled with love for my deardear friends,
who were there for me, when i really needed them.
GO SARAH <33 GO TALIA <33 go val <3

2006-11-15T06:26:00.000-08:00

i said i was sorry,
and i meant it with all my heart.

you didnt realise,
and you didnt understand,
what actually matters.

now i'm here to say that,
with or without you,
i'll still survive.
i've got my parents and my friends,
my teachers and everything else,
that i had before you came.

although you were nice,
although you were patient,
although you could tell what i was thinking about,
it was only because you liked me then.

i'm going to face up to the fact that you dont anymore,
and that you just want to be friends.

but cut me some slack,
i'm just a normal teenager,
whose first crush is you.

i'm not going to pretend like i didnt like you,
like i didnt look forward to our conversations,
like i didnt enjoy them.

but i am going to pretend like it doesnt matter,
and i can promise you,
sooner or later,
it wont.

give me some time
and i'll be back on my feet,
one week,
two weeks tops.
i promise you this.
and i hope you have the dencency,
to trust me in this
and to be patient with me
as i go back to life and the way it was.

2006-11-15T01:57:00.000-08:00

Friends

friends are always there for you
when you smile
when you're down
when you fall,
when you trip.

friends like these are invaluable,
they are irreplacable.
friends are not dolls
for you to throw around.

friends forgive,
friends accept you.
friends tell you your thoughts,
friends don't pretend you're perfect.

friendship is like love,
it is delicate--
handle with care.

go val,
with your lovely poem,
i loveeeeee you.

go sarah,
with your words about meeeee,
good luck on your homework.

go adrian,
whom i once talked to.

go jeany and kitty,
who did DT with me.

go janis,
who was quite a nerd.

go joyce,
my lovely darling piggy oink,
thanks for everything.
*oink*

go my friends,
they mean a lot to me,
just that i'm not good
at showing it.
i loveeeeee them.

friends are always there for you

when you smile

when you're down

when you fall,

when you trip.

friends like these are invaluable,

they are irreplacable.

friends are not dolls

for you to throw around.

friends forgive,

friends accept you.

friends tell you your thoughts,

friends don't pretend you're perfect.

friendship is like love,

it is delicate--

handle with care.

go val,with your lovely poem,

i loveeeeee you.

go sarah,with your words about meeeee,

good luck on your homework.

go adrian,

whom i once talked to.

go jeany and kitty,who did DT with me.

go janis,who was quite a nerd.

go joyce,my lovely darling piggy oink,

thanks for everything.*oink*

go my friends,they mean a lot to me,

just that i'm not goodat showing it.

i loveeeeee them. i

believe in angels,

the kind that heaven sends.

i'm surrounded by angels,

and i call them my best friends.

some quotes for you all to use, just remember to give me credits!

"i never stopped loving you, i just stopped letting it show."

"never again will my tears fall for you"

"maybe i've gotton over your goodbye by now"

"never give up on the things that make you smile""

you asked me what was wrong, i smiled and said nothing; i turned around and whispered everything"

"if you would let it be, you would see that i like you the way you are"

"behind this smile is everything you'll never understand"

"dream for love, for joy, for peace, for strength, for hope, never let it go."

"watch me fly away"

"i dare you to care, i dare you to trust me, i dare you to love me. are you up to it?"

"if you hold back your feelings cuz you're afraid of getting hurt, you end up getting hurt anyway"

"the truth is, everyone's gonna hurt you, you just have to decide who's worth the pain"

"on the outside i'm smiling, on the inside i'm crying. there's nothing to live for, i'm slowly dying."

"everything happens for a reason"

"this could be love"

"could i be responsible for the smile on your face?"

"sometimes it's the words that are left unspoken that hurt the most"

"music is poetry"

"love yourself for who you are"

"they laugh at me because i'm different, i laught at them because they're all the same"

"nothing ever worked out my way"

"no, you actually wouldn't understand"

"& she said "you're crazy" , & he said "only for you, baby""

"it feels like i'm always saying "...sorry"

"sometimes i just want to scream"

"we will get throught his together"

"life is miserable"

"and you'll never get anyone as good for you as me. i won't cry cuz you're done."

"being shy is not weak, being shy is unique"

"sing like nobody's listening"

"the stress you cause is enough to kill me"

"if you can't get someone out of your head, maybe they're supposed to be there"

"i have feelings too"

"there is a truth behind every "just kidding"

"dare to be different"

"smile no matter what"

"perfect is incredibily boring"

"never make someone a priority when they only make you an option"

"dear heart, i met a boy, prepare to shatter"

"sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye"

"guess forever wasn't what it used to be"

"you colour in my world, but when you're gone everything turns gray"

"you had your chance"

"before i met you, i never knew what it was like to look at someone and smile for no reason"

"and he placed his head to her heart and whispered that is my new favourite song"

"i want to be your favourite hello and hardest goodbye"

"you make me smile"

"cause i'm cool like that"

"why do dreams have to fade?"

"it takes a lot of love to hate you like this"

"i hope you choke on every word you spoke when you were screaming at me"

"everyone makes mistakes, that's why they put erasers on pencils"

"i'm not as helpless as you think"

"secretly, you're the only thing that lifts me up and makes me smile"

"&& she misses feeling loved"

"i've got a heart full of pain, head full of stress, handful of anger, held in my chest"

"today you are you, and there is no one alive that is YOUER than you"

"if you don't know where to go, any road will get you there"

"i'm not good and real, i'm evil and imaginary"

"so we fall for stupid boys, we make lots of dumb mistakes, we like to act stupid, talk really fast, and laugh really loud. but us teenage girls, we really good at one thing, staying strong."

"why can't i be that girl. the one that you talk to all your friends about. the one that puts that gorgeous smile on your face. the one that you want to be with. why can't i be your girl?"

"be happy for what you are, don't be upset for what you're not!"

"pictures fade away, but the memories last forever"

"mmkay, i just wanted to say, you one of the most amazing person i've ever met in my life. i admire you and look up to you more than you will ever know. to sum it up... i love you."

"i would do anything just to be his everything"

"pain is inevitable, suffering is optional"

"i want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles, even when her heart is broken, and that could brighten your day, even if she couldn't brighten her own."

"live, laugh, love"

"why bother having a girlfriend, when you only care about yourself?"

"reality is the leading cause of stress for those in touch with it"

"impossible only means you haven't found the solution yet"

"you say i'm a bitch like it's a bad thing"

"the clock's ticking by"

"in my own little corner in my own little chair, i can be whatever i want to be"

"my mind tells me to give up but my heart won't let me"

"no i don't wanna hate you, don't wanna fight you, you know i'll always love you, but right now i just don't like you."

"you weren't there when i was scared"

"real girls aren't perfect, perfect girls aren't read"

"look for the girl with the broken smile"

"i melt when you say those three words, would you say them again?"

"always follow your heart"

"don't keep giving me excuses"

"if i wrote you a symphony, would it show how much you mean to me?"

"its not denial, i'm just very selective about the reality i accept."

"it's really sweet to hear your voice sayin my name, it sounds so sweet coming from the lips of an angel"

"love isn't finding the perfect person, it's finding an imperfect person perfectly"

"we are all pretty bizarre, some are just better at showing it"

"sometimes i feel like a figment of my own imagination"

"wild horses couldnt' drag me away"

"i've never changed, i'm just sick of pretending to be happy"

"you're always going to be special to me, no matter what, whatever i do, wherever i go, i'll remember you."

"life goes on..."

"i'm a weirdo...and i'm lovin it"

"there's this boy who makes me smile no matter how bad i feel. he knows just what to say just to make my day. he's the one person i hate to go a day without talking to. && most importantly he's the boy who has my heart"

"i'm nowhere near perfect. i eat when i'm bored. i fall for boys and believe lies too easily. i'm hoping that one day i don't need a fake smile && make-up stories to get someone to like me. i live by quotes that explain exactly what i'm going through, and make-up excuses for everything. i have my best friends && my enemies; drama and memories. i'm just your average typical teenager."

"friends love you for who you are, so be yourself"

"i hurt myself, so you can't."

"there's a point in your life, when you realize who matters, who never did, and who always will."

"dreams are wishes your heart makes when you are fast asleep"

"sorry i'm not your perfect little barbie doll"

"best friends are meant to be together and stay together without giving up on each other"

"im sick of pretending nothing's wrong"

"i want to kill myself but i don't want to die, does that make sense?"

"please go away i'm allergic to losers"

"i want you to make me laugh"

"don't hold back"

"all i want is you"

"if my music's too loud, you too old."

"i hate bees, ok? they're like flying death monkeys."

"i'm back by popular demand"

"i'm melting in your eyes."

"live your life"

"love me 4 who i am"

"if i told you i loved you..."

"jealously is a disease, get well soon!"

"everything i thought i knew..."

"don't follow me, i'm lost too!"

"i'm too depressed to go on. you'll be sorry when i'm gone."

"true friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget"

"i'll always be the one by your side"

"best friends listen to what you don't say"

"best friends are like stars, they come and go. but the ones that stay are the ones that glow."

"if i could reach up to the stars for everytime you've made me smile, the entire night sky would be in the palm of my hands"

"a best friend is the one who can look at you with the biggest smile on your face and still know that something's wrong"

"friends are like four-leaf clovers, hard to find, but lucky to have"

"hate homework, love weekends"

"i'm only here to annoy you"

"music is my world"

"i can't look, it's killing me"

"don't tell me how to pick my friends, i'm good at that, remember? i picked YOU."

"you're so fat you sat on a rainbow and skittles popped out"

"i'm going to smile like nothing's wrong, talk like everything's perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend it's not hurting me."

"when i think of you i wonder if you ever think of me"

"the cuts in my skin are deep, but the cuts in my heart are deeper."

"animals are not meant to be on Earth to be made into fur."

"i want to be the girl you point to and say, that's her."

"34 muscles to frown, 4 muscles to stick up my middle finger and tell em to bite me."

"i am worthless, i hate myself, i hate my life, there is no reason to live."

"call me cinderella"

"you're my cuppycake"

"i don't need you"

"you were there, when i needed a friend"

2006-11-13T01:26:00.000-08:00

Clara got this song into my head:
Backstreet Boys--Incomplete

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me
I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby my baby it's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I try to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete

I don't meant to drag it on
But I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I try to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete
Incomplete

2006-11-12T04:09:00.000-08:00

You hurt me more than i did.
But my heart still leapt at the sound of your name,
And I still counted the seconds.
But i'm getting over this.
I still like you for who you are,
Even though you can hurt me.
Your deep down smile,
Your love and passions.
Your great words,
Your understanding.
I wish this had never happened,
But i'm facing the reality.
"You'll be sorry when i'm gone."--internet website dp
I'll try to be a nice friend,
But i'm not sure i'll manage,
After all this. I'm sorry.

P.S. i'm going to give you the "BOOST" chocolate i owe you on monday.

2006-11-11T19:47:00.000-08:00

In answer to your answer, my words are summed up in the following picutures and in a quote from you: to think that i would be willing to do it all over again, to think that the pain was worth it.

Thanks for everthing,

From shaping my day,

Lovely MSN convos that i always looked forward to.

For showing me your skills,

Your passion.

To hurting me,

After i hurt you too.

You did what you said i shouldn't do.

Thanks for being there,

When i needed a friend,

To talk to, To be there.

Thanks for doing things that i said thank you to in the past.

Thanks for everthing.

I'll remember how it started,

I'll remember how it ended.

I'll remember all the happy times,

I'll remember all the hurt ones.

I'll forget all the bad ones,

But i'll remember-

How you always managed to make me smile.

How you knew i wasn't happy,

Even when i had the broadest smile on my face.

Not even my closest friends anywhere has ever been able to do that.

You were the first one.

Thank you, for seeing throught my smile.

I'll always always remember that, and what you can be.

Everything was worth it to me. Everthing.

2006-11-11T07:38:00.000-08:00

"to think i meant it, to think the pain was worth it, to think that i would do it all over again".--quote

i'll say these again in my own words from my heart:
i meant it too, it was worth it too, i agree.

2006-11-11T05:45:00.000-08:00

You know who you are.

To think how i trusted you,
To think how i believed in you.
To think that i thought we could be
More than just good friends
To think i confided in you,
To think i thought you cared.
To think i tried so hard.
To think i thought you cared.
No, they were all pretence,
All those times i tried,
All those times i waited,
As i counted the seconds.
To think i treated you like a best friend.
TO THINK.
To think i cared.
To think i meant my "thanks".
To think i tried to be there,
When you needed a friend.
To think i tried to understand.
To think i tried to be what you wanted me to be.

You've shown me how you could hurt me,
I don't want that to happen anymore.

We can pretend this never happened,
And we can pretend how we don't know each other.
But what you've done,
Both good and bad, all happiness and hurt,
Will always remain in my heart, in me.

2006-11-10T06:05:00.000-08:00

Note: not Sarah, not Valerie, cuz you were GREAT friends, oh and not Ee Leng either.

I thought you were my friend.
I thought I was yours too.
I said thanks when you did something nice.
I tried to be nice.

I thought that we could be great friends,
What with all the msn chats.
And all the talk about everything.

But you’ve shown me that you didn’t care at all,
You shown me how you could break my heart.
Now I realize, that all you did was fake.
And I was stupid to have believed your words.

You may not know who you are,
And I'm not telling.
And I'm probably going to put you on my “other contacts” list.
Now you know who you are.

2006-11-09T05:27:00.000-08:00

hey guess what,
i don't care.
be two faced,
be mean.
you're not the only one,
who can be mad in this world.
i once thought we would be friends,
good friends, best friends.
but friends forgive and forget,
and it is too obvious,
that you can't do that.
be mean,
make those poems,
say sharp words,
insult me,
say bad things about me.
i am immune to your insults,
you words, and your attitude.
i don't care.

you're a little thief,
you be nice, you take my heart.
then you throw it up up into the air,
for it to land on the floor, to break.
i will not let you do that again.
you think you have power over me?
WRONG.

i won't miss you.

2006-11-08T03:12:00.000-08:00

oh WOW
guess what?
i don't mean ANYTHING to you,
and *suprise suprise*
you don't mean ANYTHING to me either.

2006-11-05T06:25:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry for over-doing it.
i'm sorry for hurting you.
i'm sorry for everything i did,
that made you feel bad.

i hope you'll forgive me,
and we'll be friends again.
and i'll be your quite little friend,
there to listen,
and be there, for you.

i'm sorry for leaving you guys,
just cuz i had other friends,
and coming back,
expecting things to be the same.

i know, that friends are precious,
and i'll be careful from now on.
i promise i'll never do that again.
please realize,
i'm really sorry.

thanks for trying to be nice,
thanks for all the good times,
and the bad.
thanks for telling me,
thanks for critizing,
so that i could learn,
and be a better friend.
thanks for being my friends.
if only for a day.

THANK YOU.

2006-11-02T00:56:00.000-08:00

have fun shopping,
without me.

2006-11-01T20:56:00.000-08:00

hey joyce,
of course we'll be friends again.
you'll always be my angel,
through good times, and bad.
YAY :)) <33

2006-11-01T02:12:00.000-08:00

thanks for leaving me out.
thanks for once being my best friend.
thanks for making me feel bad.
thanks for hurting me.
thanks for not caring about how i feel.

you once meant everything to me,
i once cared a whole great lot about you.
you were once my best friend,
you were once there for me.

thanks for all the good times,
thanks for all the bad times
that we shared together,
for the past year.

thanks for leaving me out,
so don't blame me if i go to my other friends.
thanks for making me sad,
thanks for spoiling my week.

but...
even though you're not my best friend anymore,
you'll still be my friend,
and i'll still be there for you,
when you cry,
when you're sad,
when you're hurt,
and when you're left out,
cuz i understand,
cuz i've been through all that with you,
even though you're not there for me,
anymore.

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sarah, thank you.
i am forever grateful.
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ee leng, thank you.
and i like high jump YAY!
and KINGBALL!!!
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i'm so grateful to so many ppl YAY
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and adrian, TAG MORE (MORIA)YAY!
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michelle ((:

2006-10-29T05:19:00.000-08:00

I believe in angels, the kind that heaven sends. I'm surrounded by angels, and I call them my best friends.

Thanks "oink the pig", for being my angel.

2006-10-26T02:43:00.000-07:00

ee leng,
thanks for being so nice today,
you showed me who you could really be.
i realize that i've got a friend who i can talk to,
and who would be there for me.
thanks

even if you only be like this for a day,
its going to be worth it.
i'm sorry about that.
i'm really sorry.
please forgive.
i didn't know you would get so mad and hurt,
you were laughing all the way.
i'll try not to overdo it next time.

i'll try to be there for you,
just like you've been there for me.
i'll try to listen,
and do what i can do.

thanks so much.

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sarah,
thanks for showing me,
how good one day of school can feel.
Thanks.
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val,
try to understand how you mom thinks.
if she doesn't understand you,
you might not understand her either.
just remember,
she IS your mum,
and all she wants,
is the best for you.
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entire change of topic ***
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OMGOMGOMG
let me tell a story:
once upon a time, there was a piano teacher, who taught a little girl how to play piano. one time, the girl decided to compete for music festival. but unfortunately... gosh i don't feel like typing. i'll tell u guys at skl.

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one thing i want to say is: CHINESE SUCKS!!!

2006-10-25T05:02:00.000-07:00

ALERT:NO OFFENCE, IF YOU'RE GONNA BE OFFENDED AND MAD, DON'T READ IT!!!

i know you guys try to be my friend, and i try to be yours,
but why do i feel that i don't belong?
like i'm the absoloute nobody.
the one last on your list,
the one not to be with,
the one not worth waiting for.
you three,
even though i may be last on your list,
you all are on the very TOP of mine.
thanks to all three of you,
especially YOU.
cuz you've been the nicest to me these days,
even though not the nicest you can be i know.
cuz you've been nicer.
thanks ee leng.

2006-10-23T05:30:00.000-07:00

well hey everybody
haven't updated in some time already

well i dont' know
haha collage poem
so hard, no actually confusing
wanna hear mine dearies?
here: copyright michelle

Beauty

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rebel the advanced closet of tough-looking insider information,
it perceives monochrome beauty perfection attitude.

gosh so weird right? well haha poem collage all random words from the Australian vogue magazine,
really random! SO GREAT

and ur bsh's val are NOT copyrighted xD

and ee leng lol ENGLISH and GOSH GOSH GOSH BRBRBR!! GRGRGR BSH BSH BSH!!! DEON found OUR BLOGS!!! OMGOMGOMG NOOOOO!!!

and sarah we have ting xie tmr

and everybody TAGTAGTAG !!! or flood!!!!!!! YUP!!!

i love you trina

2006-10-17T04:50:00.000-07:00

i miss you so much trina
i have no idea why.

seeing you everday,
talking to you everyday.
laughing together everyday,
helping each other everday.
was the best thing in west side story.

i'm so glad to have met you,
i'm so glad to have known you.
you've never been jealous,
you've been happy for me,
even though you had to share your part with me.
you had faith in me,
you knew i could do it.
you were willing to sacrifice your time,
so i that i could do better,
and prove to ms stearns that i could do it.
you've never minded,
me taking half of your part,
and you've always been there for me.

you've been so nice.
i don't know HOW to repay you.
you were there,
when i needed help,
when i needed support,
when i needed advice,
when i needed YOU.

why be so nice to a year 9,
whom you've just met?
who you had to share the lead role,
of your last school production with?
you could have left me.
you could just simply "not care".
you could have left me clueless, about acting.
but instead, you chose to help.
you were THERE.
you taught me the moves,
and how to act.
you gave me RITZ,
when i didn't have time to eat.
you told me the tactics of ms stearns,
and told me how to face them.
you gave me your number,
and told me to call you,
whenever i needed you.

you could have been mad,
but you were happy.
"if i got the part when i was your age,
it would have been a dream come true"
your words. they made me proud.
but i realize, i DO need your help.
you could have left me,
and you would've got to do ALL the performances.
but no,
you taught me,
and gave me the chance to perform.

thank you so much trina,
words cannot express my thanks.
i will never forget you, NEVER.
go, and may you fulfill your dream,
of becoming the actress in you.
you will be very successful,
trust me.

THANK YOU TRINA,
THANKS FOR ALL YOU'VE DONE.
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SAY THIS,
BUT ... THANK YOU,
AND I LOVE YOU AS A FRIEND.
THANKS FOR JUST... BEING THERE FOR ME.
I'VE LEARNT A LOT FROM YOU,
AND I'VE REALIZED, JUST HOW MUCH I'VE GOT TO LEARN, NOT TO BE AN ACTRESS, BUT TO BE A FRIEND. YOU'VE SHOWN ME, HOW A GREAT FRIEND CAN MAKE YOU FEEL.
YOU'VE SHOWN ME, THAT A GREAT FRIEND WILL:

BE HAPPY FOR YOU EVEN IF THEY HAVE TO SACRIFICE SOMETHING
SACRIFICE TIME AND EFFORT FOR YOU
NOT MIND SHARING
CARE
BE THERE FOR YOU

TRINA, THANKS FOR BEING A GREAT FRIEND, A GREAT HELP, AND A GREAT ACTRESS. I LUV U (AS A FRIEND OF COURSE). I COULDN'T HAVE WISHED FOR A BETTER YEAR 13 FRIEND.

i love scott

2006-10-13T18:58:00.000-07:00

i love you scott, we win as a group; we lose as a group

gosh i don't miss outward bound
but i miss the group of scott
how we've bonded is a wonder.
and we've all worked hard together as a group.

the rafting was the best example,
when we all worked hard,
and when we didn't paddle fast enough,
we made up time by tidying up SO VERY fast.
but we lost, by half a second,
but we lost as a group,
and didn't blame anyone.

then we had our drama performance.
we all left dinner early just to practise.
we ALL did.

we warned each other of rocks and holes on the hike,
and we waited for each other.
we shouted encouragement to others,
and didn't blame the navigators when we went the wrong way.
we helped each other overcome difficulties along the way,
and together, we got through the hike.
at night, when we were camping out,
we saw the "magical banana dog in a white dress",
and we stuck together when we were scared,
and sang songs together.

we encouraged each other,
on the VERY high rope course.
we had a nice experience, TOGETHER.

we cooked,
we washed,
we ate,
together.
we helped each other,
when there were those nasty bees,
like the BIG bee [rmb THAT bee, val?]

we worked as a group,
bonded together as one.
and may it stay that way,
even though scott will only exist in our minds,
and deep in our hearts.

i love you scott boys and girls:
cissy, me, jody, veronica, stephane, kei kei, melody, valerie, chris au, chris checketts, sinclair, and kevin. our leaders hong and jan were the BEST on the last two days, but i'm not commenting on the other days. thanks for being there.

-cissy, jody, veronica, stephanie, kei kei, melo: thanks for being there
-valerie: thanks for sticking with me, when i was in a bad mood
-chris au, chris checketts, sinclair: thanks for working with me, as a group
-kevin: thanks SOOOOOOO much, for helping me and us, as a group, whenever we needed help

may scott people stay as a team, bonded together, even at school. may we not be pulled apart, just because of our friends. i'll say this one last time: i LOVE you with all my heart, boys and girls of scott, including the leaders hong and jan!!!

OBS Outward Bound School

2006-10-08T07:44:00.000-07:00

going off to outward bound school (obs) to see if i can "survive",
i missed it in p.6 (yr. 7) and i'm going now.
hope i can enjoy it...
"God, please watch over me."
may God bless all of you who are going to obs.
"to serve and strive and not to yield" motto of obs
well i hope we'll gain LOADS of experience YAY

and vall its true, and haha ur bak fan yu, i went ESPECIALLY for u, and my mum wasn't especially happy abt it cuz she had to drive me there aiyoh but it's fine tehee! :))
and sarah you're on the "remote, desolated" island, but don't worry, you'll have FUN, k? luv ya!
and ee leng have fun in obs!
and joyce have fun and haha, ur hiking boots lol

POST AGAIN WHEN I'M BACK FROM OBS!!!

2006-10-06T22:33:00.000-07:00

i'm just not good enough,
i'm just not.

thanks for being there,
thanks for breaking my heart.

you told me to pair up with you next time in Beijing,
i agreed.
but you decided that you wanted to go with her,
and you went with me only because she already had someone.

first time you broke my heart.
i realized i didn't mean anything to you,
compared to her.

i saved a space for you,
and called you over.
you decided it was a good idea,
but sad next to her instead.

second time you broke my heart.
i tried so hard,
i thought you didn't like your homeroom,
but you never cared, and never realized.

there are many more,
that i don't want to list.
you won't care,
so i won't either.

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thanks for always leaving me out.
thanks for never waiting.
thanks for leaving me alone,
thanks for pretending.
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thanks for stealing all my friends,
thanks for acting like you know everything.
thanks for acting like you were the boss over the universe.
thanks for being extra extra mean to me,
when i try my best to be extra nice to you.
i thought you were my friend,
i thought we could share.
but all those were dreams,
and fantasy, and they never came true for me.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
FOR JOYCE, if you ever read this:
thanks for being such a good friend.
thanks for being the best friend i had here.
thanks for sticking up for me,
and thanks for all the good times with you.
thanks for bearing with me,
when i as annoying.
thanks for being there,
when i needed a friend.
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no one ever cares about me
about what i write,
about what i post.
does anyone ever read my posts,
and actually care?
if one post said: "i want to die, seriously" ( i don't)
would you even care?
would you even call?
would you?

i don't want to get hurt anymore.
tell me the truth if you don't like me.
i'll find others.
please do that,
even if that's the last thing you do for me--the nobody, to you all.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
west side story changed my life for the better.
even though people changed it for the worse.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
one last question:
DOES ANYONE EVEN CARE ABOUT ME FROM THE BOTTOM OF THEIR HEART?

2006-10-04T22:07:00.002-07:00

i feel so left out,
maybe because i am.

i LOVE you west side story!!!

2006-10-03T01:31:00.001-07:00

i love you west side
i love you trina

there was chinese dance today,
and we were rehearsing in the auditorium
the wss set was still there,
and so i went up to the balcony to sing.

then i realized HOW much i actually missed wss,
and how much i actaully missed going up to the balcony and climbing those stairs everyday,
and i mean every single DAY.

its really sad,
after all the hard work, time and effort spent,
IT'S OVER, wss people, can you believe it?

omg i really miss wss, even though i'm really scared of ms stearns,
and also the fear of the two particular scenes.
i still love you with all my hear, west side story!!!

I LOVE YOU TRINA I LOVE YOU WEST SIDE

2006-09-30T22:03:00.000-07:00

i can't believe it, WEST SIDE STORY'S over!!!
after all the hardwork we put in,
after all the stress ms stearns gave me.
after everything,
it's OVER.

west side brought sadness,
sorrow,
stress,
happiness,
bad grades, and last but not least,
FRIENDSHIP that i will always treasure.

Thanks for all these people who have helped me:

Trina, thanks for all you've done,
And i say that from the very bottom of my heart.
Trina, what could i do without you?
I'm so worried about you,
Yet i don't want to confess
Afraid that you won't be yourself
In front of me.
Afraid that i know everything.
May God bless you.

Sarah thanks for everything,
for giving me rides,
for waiting,
for comforting,
for just being there.

Talia,
i'm sorry for THAT.
You were great,
and i LOVE YOU.

Valerie,
thanks for everything,
and rmb u promised not to tell.
thanks for all the hugs backstage.

Thomas,
thanks for working with me.
i'm sorry if i screwed some of it up,
i hope you will still treat me as a friend.

Theo,
thanks for all the musical advice
thanks for sticking up for me
even though i may be a kid in ur point of view.

Cerina,
thanks for the flowers,
and thanks for all the lovely times,
i wish now that i had a sister more than ever.
Thanks for the lovely many months with YOU.

mr morr,
thanks for putting up with my lousy singing sometimes,
thanks for helping me through hard parts in songs,
thanks for praising me even though i wasn't that good.

ms stearns,
thanks for sacrificing time to practise with me,
so that i can do better,
thanks for giving me the chance
to actually play the lead role.
thanks for everthing,
even though you didn't cry for me.

louise,
thanks for the WONDERFUL work you've done,
i couldn't have done it without you.

michelle,
thanks for the BEST choreography,
even though we changed a lot of it.
you will always be in my heart.
good luck in ur studies.

ms nagel,
thanks for encouraging and praising me on the first night and second.

ms watson,
thanks for soing my makeup.
and also for smiling at me,
and making me feel important,
that i was actually a SOMEBODY.

ms chadwick,
ms farrell,
mrs o'connell,
mr mulcahy,
mr craig, and
mrs thorman.
R.E.G.R.E.T.
it's not too late YET.

2006-09-27T22:21:00.000-07:00

if you don't let me do anything, don't say i wont' do anything

thanks for being mean
thanks for being "generous"
thanks fro treating me like dirt
thanks for laughing
thansk for "caring"
thanks for all the "lovely" things that you've done
thanks for trying your best
to make me feel bad,
to make me sad
and to make me mad
why?
what have i done?
what have i done wrong?
i treat you as my friend, you don't
i share my stuff with you, you don't

go on, treat me like dirt
see if i care
go on, i won't give
if you do so i will too

so here ends this talk
and here ends my misery
for i will no longer treat you as my friend
at heart
be as mean as you can be
see if i care
be as nasty as you can be
i won't care

in my heart
i will be sad to lose such a nice friend as you
but i have no choice but to let you go
maybe i just don't belong
maybe i'm just not your friend
maybe i've been too smart
and i've thought that it would work out
after all that,
after all the effort
i now know its impossible
and that we can never be together

i'm sorry.

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vall: hi oh and i second that sharks are better than jets

sarah: BREAK ALL THE LEGS YOU NEED, and you are such a good friend, that you actually cared :)) <33 u

talia: if you ever come to read this, you BREAK LEGS TOO, and thanks for being X-TRA nice to me, and tell sarah for me that i didn't DITCH you guys, i had to do work, not PLAY

emm: hi darling, tag more!!! you and ur famous :3 s

trina: [if you read this] thanks for everything:
thanks for all the time you've spent helping me
thanks for doing my make-up
thanks for sticking up for me
thanks for teaching me
i appriciate all that
and thanks for being happy for me
and so...
a great big fat THANK YOU TRINA from the bottom of my heart

tiff: thanks is all i can say

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may everyone BREAK LEGS

2006-09-21T02:33:00.000-07:00

5:45pm home michelle posting:

today at west side story, i couldn't really sing and tiff and val were like touching me and was saying i was sick, ugh but nice thanks.

omg tina is so good, she cried acting (cuz she was supposed to be sad) omg excellent tina!!!

after the "a boy like that/ i have a love" song which i did BADLY, a) i couldn't sing b) i didn't know the moves:

"michelle, do you know your movements?"
"yeah"
"are you sure?"
"yeah" (actually not really)
[i forgot wt she said]"wts the matter?"?
"um... i'm sick"
"then you should be home resting, sweetheart"
"is there any point in still continuing rehearsal if you're sick?" [gently]
"um... i don't know"
"mr morr?"
"no, and michelle i take it that you messed up the beats because u're sick, go home and practise."
"ok"
"is there any way you can get home?"
"yes"
"then go home are rest, you don't look too well" (ms stearns)
"ok"
"ok is the other pair here?"
"yes"
"michelle, if you don't feel well don't come tomorrow, rest for saturday cuz its a big thing"
"ok, thank you"

it was sooooo embarassing cuz she said it in front of practically the whole cast, but also sweet, and nice. oh and i know the dialogue is really messed up ahh

got to go study chinese and see if u can do the bk report arggh

Random facts and news

2006-09-19T21:54:00.000-07:00

ahh HI
i dno why but i keep saying HELLO

argh! wt is the problem
stuck in my head lol

ahh today in english adrian's class was late, and then there was this empty seat in our table (all girls) and then he just sad down and started getting his stuff out
&& i was like ADRIAN!!!
and he said "what???"
and i was like "sit at the boys table!!!"
and he was like oh!!!
and all of us (the girls) were laughing
n i said clara, maybe he likes you
cuz he sat right next to her
jkjk its not
haha

ok this is my LOVELY LOVELY schedule of this LOVELY week
ahh lets see

friday:

chinese test
chinese dictation
chinese book report due

and others:

french test coming up
chinese essay
french homework
dt designs (four!!!)
oh and west side story: learn lines, learn moves, rehearsals... etc. etc. etc.

ahh and WHY OH WHY is everything in threes?

four favourite words of mine theese days:

aiyoh
ahh
lol jkjkjk
HI/HELLO

ahh some comments and shoutouts:

ee leng's lovely poem for sarah is so very sweet, and how does she compose such lovely poems i don't know:

I am a dancer - because I dance.

The spotlight shines, the music beginsI twirl, I spin.

I jump, I leap furtherFrom one side to another.S

mooth steps and turns, my arms precise.

Exhilarating, all those eyes and brightly colored lights.

Rising up to Pointe, and down to plie.

Performing what Iâ€™m so familiar with, what Iâ€™ve practiced everyday.

I am a dancer, thatâ€™s what I am.

I'm proud of dancing, Iâ€™m proud that I can.

I feel pain and fearI experience applause and failure.

I feel happiness and disgrace,I feel beauty and grace.

Sometimes I fail, but I don't give up.

For I am a dancer, and I believe in myself.

I don't dance for fame, I dance for myself.

I believe in what I think, I believe in what I feel.

I'm poised and serene,

I'm the beauty of dancing.

Dancing is my dream, I can't let it die

For when I dance, I feel like I can fly

The world can just disappear, my troubles can ease

For just that one moment, I am truly at peace.
For saraH
Emily Mui Ee Leng

sarah's confusing posts that i don't understand

valerie's sweet poem

I look at you all and you guys look at me,

As we walk together in one motion.

I realised what lucky people we were,

To actually have each other.

I look at you all and you guys look at me,

As we talk happily and freely.

We open our minds and pour our thoughts,

Cry our hearts out or giggle alot.

I look at you all and you guys look at me,

People think we're of one family.

Friends bonded as one, together we stand,

We face problems together.

I look at you all and you guys look at me,

Nothing stands among us, nothing ever be.

Stand together, friends walking together,

Miss each other during the summer.

FER SARAH, EMILY, MICHELLE! :D

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! muah!!! <33

2006-09-19T04:39:00.000-07:00

doesn't anyone think that west side story affects their school grades?
doesn't anyone think that having everything due on one day from the same subject is a bit too much?
doesn't anyone want to talk to dai4 lao3 shi1?
doesn't anyone who is in west side story want to get good grades in my chinese class?
how can you study when you have rehearsal 4 times a week each for 2 or 3 or even 4 hours?
does anyone care?

does anyone have the courage to ask the teachers?
does anyone think its important?
does everyone think they can manage?

argh this starting to be too much
i never thought joining this would be so time-consuming
i knew i would have to sacrifice my time,
but ms stearns should have asked our teachers to let us off homework (like they i think planned to do in cico buff)
how else should we be able to learn our lines properly and do our homework and revise and get enought sleep?

HELP!!!

~feeling the pressure~,
michelle

omg we have to rehearse (us) until 6 on thursday and friday is the chinese test, chinese dictation, chinese book report (due) and so on...

2006-09-14T08:26:00.000-07:00

Earthquake+Wss set=NOISE
Earthquake+Rain=Chaos
Rain+Me+Sarah=wet clothing

Wow earthquake today 3.5 magnitude
Was at the auditorium listening to the talk about outward bound project week
Then towards the end Q and A time, the earthquake shook, and at that time,...
editt//

Protecting Myself

2006-09-12T06:49:00.000-07:00

i thought we could be friends,
good friends, or even best friends.
i thought that after all the chats,
we would be able to know each other better.
i thought we would forgive and forget
each others mistakes,
no matter big or small.
i thought that we could get along
without endless arguements and "getting mad"s.

was i too hopeful?
were my "i think"s all wrong?
was i too cheerful?
was i too excited?
was i completely and utterly wrong?

Maybe.

should i just shut up?
should i just go away?
should i just forget, all the good times we had together?

Maybe. But can I?

will everything change?
will they change for the better?

Maybe, or Maybe Not.

can everything change for the better
in just one single night?
with one single word?
with one single post?

Can it?

what have i done wrong?
it was just an accident,
and accidents always happen,
everyone makes them.

everyone will just say:
"you were so mean to her"
"she was only protecting herself"
"but you really are annoying"

will you all ever know how much you can hurt me?
and make me sad and angry at the same time?

2006-09-09T06:21:00.000-07:00

""To have had to pair up with the person in class whom nobody likes for a school project,
Just because no one wanted to pair up with me?"
and to think that you were my friend.
and to think you always wanted to me my partner
you just wanted a good grade, thats all.
and to think of all the night chats
you just wanted to make sure i would be your friend, thats all.
and to think that you would always be there for me
you just wanted me to be there for you.
and to think you always picked me first in science
never letting me have a chance with anyone else, trying to get a good grade.
i won't say anything if i have to go with you
whether a teacher put us together, or everyone's taken.
you could have said something
and i could have tried.
i'm not going to say anything
i'm not going to do anything.
don't try saying sorry
it'll all be for nothing.
i'll never be the friend you always wanted
you'll never be the friend i thought
i'll still cooperate
for the sake of my grades."

this is what hurts.

2006-09-07T04:27:00.000-07:00

aiyoh looking for a magazine for english tmr, aiyoh no one has...

well today first lesson is science
&& i broke a flask
so careless of me,
and then i swept it up
and then i left loads of glass
then dr hakim was like theres a lot more
and the guys were like yeah michelle cheung, i told you so
cuz yeah, they did tell me
but my glasses were wrong,
and i couldn't really see
and then they were like pointing here
there and everywhere-
dr hakims instructions for them to help me la
and she was like practically watching
and since i couldn't see i kept on missing,
and they were like i think u missed,
so embarassing la
lucky it was empty and not filled with chemicals
aiyoh, must be more careful la

then english,
"silent" reading
kk n claudia was like its cold turn off the aircon
then we turned it off
and they were like omg its so quiet
&& kk was like should we turn it back on its too quiet HAHA

then we had homeroom
and mrs oconnell wasn't feeling too well
&& sarah and me n cissy
mostly sarah
was so nice, and we went and talked to her
and after that she let us out 10 minutes early (as always)
and then i was walking beside her cuz i had nothing to do
and she put her arm around me n said i was good
n i was like yeah, i'm GOOD
n she was like yeah G-O-O-D in tiny lettering
i was like YEAH! HAHA

then we had math
i like math
was kinda boring though
talking abt percentages n fractions n ratios n stuff that's so easy
no offence but i kinda learnt it in prmiary 4?
oh and mr [z]ang haha mr tsang gave me a merit cuz i got full marks for both quizzes haha

then we had music
so stupid of me brought my violin home yesterday n brought it again today
i mean so unnecessary
then we had to practice for our assessment
i practised my violin
kinda fast
i will find a way to do it somehow
then ee leng could find her "do" C on the flute
&& didn't want to ask casper cuz he was a boy and maybe she's shy? haha
then we asked him for her and after a few times she finally got it
go ee leng
you can do it!
then dr lau said we were doing quite well
we were doing 7 parts instead of 4-5 la!
then towards the end dr lau asked me to join cme chinese music ensemble
and told me to play violin
and he was bad
he tempted me with merits
but its ture though
you get loads of merits
then i told him i had wss west side story
and he was like oh, cum after
and i told him i would
but then i would have to skip recording a rock band music cca that i had SO looked forward to :(
but owell i guess its my choice

and then there was wss
i tried on my costume
kinda tight i have to admit
but i'll have to fit cuz trina's like extra extra skinny
and then the fitting ppl told ms strearns that they would put buttons
so that trina would fit too la
so embarassing
but the dress is so extra nice
its milky white
its so hot though
but i don't care
those petticoats?
like those nets beneath the skirt
omg its like 10 layers
so prickly
but i still like it
its long sleeves and ahh
there is like paddings omg!
and they put it so low
i don't think its in the right place yet
ahhhHAHAHAHA
and even Trina has to wear it,
even though she's skinny she still has, you know
*suprise suprise*

kingball tomorrow
have to bring pe and also drama for wss
so much stuff
i'm gonna dress casual

GO RED!!!
RED HOUSE IS GONNA ROCK THE HOUSE!!!
RED WILL WIN THE FINALS!!!
RED IS GONNA KICK SOME ASS!!!
LETS GO, RED!!!
RED BULLS WILL WIN OVER ALL!!!

oh and valerie,
don't be sad,
we're all going to be there for you,
you couldn't ask for better friends, right?
i know how it feels
smile and we'll ROCK ON together, k?

luv, Michelle of RED HOUSE

2006-09-06T05:56:00.000-07:00

"its okay. & of course we'll be friends and rock everyone again (:"

you put a smile on my face and make me glow with happiness. THANK YOU.

Like ME for Who i AM

2006-09-02T07:56:00.000-07:00

You think i am hyper,
You think i am crazy,
You think i am selfish,
You think i don't care.

You think i don't try,
When i try my best to be friends.

Your words mean so much to me,
You could never imagine,
How one sentence of yours could hurt me so much.

I know how hard it is to have people misunderstanding you,
But at least you have your friends,
And in your circle of friends,
You will have loads of parties,
And loads of time hanging-out together.

In all my life, i've never had a friend that i could tell secrets to,
Trust, or Confide in.
Did you know how hard it was,
To have had to pair up with the person in class whom nobody likes for a school project,
Just because no one wanted to pair up with me?
Do you know how hard i try to fit in,
And all that i've done to try to be a good friend?
Yet everyone just hates me deep in their heart.
I'm Michelle Cheung, and You're Sarah.
When people call you with your last name,
They aren't close friends,
And everyone calls me with my last name,
Will you ever know how much it hurts?

Do you think that i laugh just because i am happy?
Do you think i can be happy everyday?
Do you think that i really can laugh when you're practically ignoring me,
When you say "i'm not going to talk to you, Michelle"?
Do you have ANY idea how much that hurts?

I know i'm annoying,
But do you really think that i like annoying you?
I don't.

Laughing is one way of covering up for my shyness,
And sometimes of pure happiness,
But to a ratio of 9:1

I'm sorry that i've practically ignored you guys on the first week of school,
It's just that i really want a best friend,
Whom i can really talk to,
And confess,
And that was my one chance.

(Valerie,
You were one great friend too,
Thanks for all you've done.
Now you can move on with Sarah and Ee Leng.)

In that one week,
Everythink changed.
You all grew close together,
Without me,
And hung out together.

Thanks for all the pretence,
And the wonderful past year.
YOU showed me the amount of difference having a best friend could make,
THANK YOU.

I once believed in you.
On your first day,
I was the one who first wanted to ask you over to our table,
But you never knew that, did you?

I admit that i'm not a great friend,
I admit i'm not perfect,
Not even close.

I really do try my best,
To be YOUR friend.
One to be appreciated,
To be accepted,
To be trusted,
To be thanked, and
To be remembered.

Maybe i thought we could be best friends,
Maybe i was overly excited about new friends,
Maybe i'm just born to be people's enemy,
To be the center of their HATE.

As i write this,
I realize what i pathetic child i am,
How desperate i am to have a happy school life,
And how much i believe that friendship can make a difference,
I fight to hold back my tears that come to my eyes.

I hope that one day you'll care,
One day you'll realize how imporant you are to me.

I hope that one day i'll find a best friend of "my type",
And life and school can be happy once again,
Without deception,
And without the wall that i'm setting up around myself.

I dream for that one day.

As i drift away from you,
From the life of happiness, smiles, and giggles.
Will you even remember me?
Will i still exist in your memory as a friend?

Bye forever,
Smiles, giggles, pokes, and laughter.
How hard will it be to say BYE to all those thinkgs that have made ME?
I'll find out soon enough.

Longing to be FREE

2006-09-02T07:35:00.000-07:00

chose this skin thats suitable for sarah cuz i long to be free (dancers are free and elegant)
:))